- Jun 19, 2013
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- Bulldog(s) Names
- Willow (2015) Walter (2014-22) Winston (2012-13) Wellie (2012-13) Bella (2007-13)
Today is a difficult one for meā¦ a year ago today we lost our big beautiful boy Winston.
As I sit here in tears, I can tell you every little detail about that dayā¦ but I don't want to focus on that today, it's too raw for me to go into the details of what happened. I will say that it will go in my personal history as one of the absolute worst moments in my life. The kind that you didn't see coming, and the horrible loneliness I felt driving back alone that night.
The saying goesā¦ that when God slams the door, he opens a window. Wellā¦ in my case, he opened two!!!
The first one was EBNā¦ I can NOT put into words how much YOUR support here on EBN has meant to me and my family. The outpouring of messages, calls, letters, flowers, memorial stones, and necklace were overwhelmingā¦ AND that support has continued to this very day. I will NEVER forget the day we picked up Winston's ashes (me & the hubby were already in tears) and there on the counter were my flowers from EBN!!! At that moment we realized that there WERE other people like usā¦ who believed that animals were family!!! There are several members on here, and YOU know who you are
that I consider my own personal familyā¦ I could NOT have gotten thru this nightmare w/out you!!! Your love and friendship mean the absolute world to meā¦ 
The second one is Walterā¦ I really wasn't sure if I was ready to have another bully baby in my life again. Winston was the last of three bullies that we had lost in the past year, and I didn't know if I could open my heart up again. Lily was having an extremely hard time after the loss of Winston, so I put my personal feelings aside and decided the timing was right. Walter has brought us SO much joy, and has healed a family that was beyond heartbrokenā¦ NO dog can replace another, your heart just expands. Walter reminds me of Winston at times w/his bossiness and surveying of his kingdomā¦ BUT he also reminds me of Bella w/his OCD over the vacuum and his other quirks.
Some people have said to meā¦ How can you get another bulldog after all that you have been thru?!! My comment to them is thisā¦ How can I NOT?!! Bullies LOVE like no other, and WE are the blessed ones who get to experience that LOVE for ourselves. No matter HOW many times my heart will be broken, I'm STILL blessed!!! LOVE is always a gamble, but it makes this life worth livingā¦ NEVER let loss prevent you from living or loving again.
Winston I LOVED you like NO otherā¦ and I STILL miss you, my big beautiful boyā¦
And I LOVE all of you!!!
As I sit here in tears, I can tell you every little detail about that dayā¦ but I don't want to focus on that today, it's too raw for me to go into the details of what happened. I will say that it will go in my personal history as one of the absolute worst moments in my life. The kind that you didn't see coming, and the horrible loneliness I felt driving back alone that night.
The saying goesā¦ that when God slams the door, he opens a window. Wellā¦ in my case, he opened two!!!
The first one was EBNā¦ I can NOT put into words how much YOUR support here on EBN has meant to me and my family. The outpouring of messages, calls, letters, flowers, memorial stones, and necklace were overwhelmingā¦ AND that support has continued to this very day. I will NEVER forget the day we picked up Winston's ashes (me & the hubby were already in tears) and there on the counter were my flowers from EBN!!! At that moment we realized that there WERE other people like usā¦ who believed that animals were family!!! There are several members on here, and YOU know who you are
that I consider my own personal familyā¦ I could NOT have gotten thru this nightmare w/out you!!! Your love and friendship mean the absolute world to meā¦ The second one is Walterā¦ I really wasn't sure if I was ready to have another bully baby in my life again. Winston was the last of three bullies that we had lost in the past year, and I didn't know if I could open my heart up again. Lily was having an extremely hard time after the loss of Winston, so I put my personal feelings aside and decided the timing was right. Walter has brought us SO much joy, and has healed a family that was beyond heartbrokenā¦ NO dog can replace another, your heart just expands. Walter reminds me of Winston at times w/his bossiness and surveying of his kingdomā¦ BUT he also reminds me of Bella w/his OCD over the vacuum and his other quirks.
Some people have said to meā¦ How can you get another bulldog after all that you have been thru?!! My comment to them is thisā¦ How can I NOT?!! Bullies LOVE like no other, and WE are the blessed ones who get to experience that LOVE for ourselves. No matter HOW many times my heart will be broken, I'm STILL blessed!!! LOVE is always a gamble, but it makes this life worth livingā¦ NEVER let loss prevent you from living or loving again.
Winston I LOVED you like NO otherā¦ and I STILL miss you, my big beautiful boyā¦
And I LOVE all of you!!!
Sorry, I don't mean for you to get FIREDā¦ Lol
It was the first time I have seen him do thatā¦ OH and he LOVES to sleep under the Christmas tree nowā¦ Lol Not sure how he's going to feel w/presents under there 
. Will be thinking of you and Winston today 
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