To all of my dear, dear EBN friends - your kind words and beautiful flowers - have made me able to get up in the morning. I can NEVER thank you enough for your support and encouragement. Scott and I are overwhelmed by your kindness. I never have to tell anyone on this site about the pain of losing your furry child - you all either have experienced it or can imagine the pain, because you all love your babies so very much. I know Dudley is free of pain and whatever demons drove him, but I think I am going to miss him for the rest of my life - he was that special to me. My first EBD and one so loved and cherished. I hope some day that I can rescue a bulldog who needs a loving home and a crazy bulldog mama! On Tuesday, a day I didn't think I would survive, I was driving home from seeing my aunt in rehab (she is 91 and recently fell and broke a bone near her shoulder) and I see a woman walking a bulldog down the street. Of course, I had to stop the car, get out and talk to her. I'm sure the woman thought the sobbing woman was a lunatic, until I explained my situation. She immediately understood. I got a little bully love and then got back into the car...and yes, I did cry all of the way home. And, I continue to cry, because the house is empty and I have no softly snoring bulldog on the couch beside me! But, I do have an amazing bulldog family that has extended its hearts and arms, and for this I always, always will be grateful. I hope you will allow me to stalk your baby bullies here on the forum, and for some of you, on facebook. As much as it hurts sometimes, I can never give up my love of the bulldog!! Thank you all -- with much love and gratitude!
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
