You were awake all night, restless, watching your daddy and I sleep, did you know? Was you telling us it would be our last night together ?
You touched me with your sweet lil paw. I raised up and looked at you " what's the matter baby ? Do you need to go outside?" You struggled to move your lil body around. I picked you up, trying not to hurt your lil leg that cancer had won over. I carried you outside and set you on the grass. You looked at me as to say "Thank you Mama". Did you know that would be our last time outside together? You loved sitting outside on the cool grass, watching the birds and squirrels play around you, feeling a cool breeze every once in awhile. You looked at peace.
We sat there for awhile, in the early morning together, listening, enjoying the soft glow in the sky, feeling the breeze tickle your cute lil cow ears. Then you looked at me and tried to get up. It hurt me to watch you struggle so hard just to move. I picked you up and carried you inside. I sat you beside your daddy, making sure your lil butt was on the pillow, just like you liked it. You loved laying beside your daddy, feeling his body next to yours. You propped you lil head on his arm. Did you know?
You still couldn't get comfortable as you stirred around, time for some more meds. I rolled your meds in peanut butter balls and put them in the freezer. You loved peanut butter ball treats, taken 15 pills a day meant lots of peanut butter treats, that was the last treat you had, if I had only known. You licked your lips as you finished taken your medicine and laid your head down, waiting for them to help take the pain away.
Your daddy and I were sitting outside talking about you, how we were gonna put a blanket out under the trees and let you relax outside, maybe take a dip in your kiddy pool, but that was not to be. Inside something happened to you, the battle you have been fighting for the last four months was on. You lost conscious as we rushed you to the emergency room. Your daddy and I were so worried about you, we kept trying to talk to you, trying to get you to respond to us ....just please open your eyes... The hospital was waiting on us, they took you in the back... We waited in a room. The time seemed to go by so slowly as the tears were pouring down my face...was it time? Was this it? Our hearts were breaking wide open, the pain was unbearable , then the Dr. came in and gave us the bad news. You had had a stroke or something like that, he wasn't quite sure, but you would not be the same. So we were left with a decision, a very heart wrenching decision. Your quality of life was gone. God knows, We did not want you to suffer anymore than you already had, we loved you so much...they brought you in to us, you just laid there with your eyes closed, breathing hard. We started telling you how much we loved you and how very special you were, how much happiness you brought to our lives, and how we would always love you.. You looked at us with those big beautiful brown eyes and said "I love you too, I'm gonna be alright, we will be together again" and then you crossed over that rainbow bridge with your lil wiggle butt...
It's was a week ago this very hour, she passed and there's not a day goes by that I don't miss my sweet baby , but as my son wrote us "only God could take care of her better than you both did , and believe me,he is now" so I know she is in no more pain and happy, trotting around up there like a bulldog.
Till we see you again our sweet love, Winnie
Rest In Peace
“It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them. And every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough,all the components of my heart will be dog,and I will become as generous and loving as they are"
You touched me with your sweet lil paw. I raised up and looked at you " what's the matter baby ? Do you need to go outside?" You struggled to move your lil body around. I picked you up, trying not to hurt your lil leg that cancer had won over. I carried you outside and set you on the grass. You looked at me as to say "Thank you Mama". Did you know that would be our last time outside together? You loved sitting outside on the cool grass, watching the birds and squirrels play around you, feeling a cool breeze every once in awhile. You looked at peace.
We sat there for awhile, in the early morning together, listening, enjoying the soft glow in the sky, feeling the breeze tickle your cute lil cow ears. Then you looked at me and tried to get up. It hurt me to watch you struggle so hard just to move. I picked you up and carried you inside. I sat you beside your daddy, making sure your lil butt was on the pillow, just like you liked it. You loved laying beside your daddy, feeling his body next to yours. You propped you lil head on his arm. Did you know?
You still couldn't get comfortable as you stirred around, time for some more meds. I rolled your meds in peanut butter balls and put them in the freezer. You loved peanut butter ball treats, taken 15 pills a day meant lots of peanut butter treats, that was the last treat you had, if I had only known. You licked your lips as you finished taken your medicine and laid your head down, waiting for them to help take the pain away.
Your daddy and I were sitting outside talking about you, how we were gonna put a blanket out under the trees and let you relax outside, maybe take a dip in your kiddy pool, but that was not to be. Inside something happened to you, the battle you have been fighting for the last four months was on. You lost conscious as we rushed you to the emergency room. Your daddy and I were so worried about you, we kept trying to talk to you, trying to get you to respond to us ....just please open your eyes... The hospital was waiting on us, they took you in the back... We waited in a room. The time seemed to go by so slowly as the tears were pouring down my face...was it time? Was this it? Our hearts were breaking wide open, the pain was unbearable , then the Dr. came in and gave us the bad news. You had had a stroke or something like that, he wasn't quite sure, but you would not be the same. So we were left with a decision, a very heart wrenching decision. Your quality of life was gone. God knows, We did not want you to suffer anymore than you already had, we loved you so much...they brought you in to us, you just laid there with your eyes closed, breathing hard. We started telling you how much we loved you and how very special you were, how much happiness you brought to our lives, and how we would always love you.. You looked at us with those big beautiful brown eyes and said "I love you too, I'm gonna be alright, we will be together again" and then you crossed over that rainbow bridge with your lil wiggle butt...
It's was a week ago this very hour, she passed and there's not a day goes by that I don't miss my sweet baby , but as my son wrote us "only God could take care of her better than you both did , and believe me,he is now" so I know she is in no more pain and happy, trotting around up there like a bulldog.
Till we see you again our sweet love, Winnie
Rest In Peace
“It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them. And every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough,all the components of my heart will be dog,and I will become as generous and loving as they are"