Porkchop is 11 yrs, 10 months. He's gradually lost a lot of ability to use his back legs due to neurological damage due to spinal bone spurs over 6 years. Up until this morning, he eats, drinks, and walks about the house. I think he's slowly been going blind and appears to have lost much of his hearing. Yes, he is old. He has days when he sleeps alot and others when he is awake much of the time. This morning, he woke up, barked for me to get him off the bed, refused his morning doses of Carprofen and Gabapentin, made it to the living room and started vomiting bile. Then he dropped to the ground on his side and went stiff, then started shaking. I think it was a seizure. Then he lost control of his bowels and bladder. He's sleeping on the floor now. My son witnessed this and asked me what I was going to do. I said clean up the mess. "No, Mom. What are you going to do now with Pork? Are you going to wait until he dies here or show him mercy and take him to the vet, let him pass?" I have had to put down 2 other dogs before their time, IMO, (I don't use those vets anymore) and I can't bear to call the ball again. But I don't want him suffering either. He's not in pain with his neuro damage. But his back legs slide about as he tries to walk. And now this event today.... I don't know what to do. Part of me feels selfish. But then again, he's had a couple of other "bad days" when I debated only to see him make a comeback the next day. Today was the worst. I would be grateful if someone could tell me what they did when conflicted on the same issue. Thank you.