LiLlilly
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- Mar 2, 2012
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- Bulldog(s) Names
- Lilly, Chester
Hello everyone, sorry I fell off the face of the planet. Lilly decided to chew up my power supply to my laptop, and I had no computer for a while. But I have some bad news...
Saturday, my almost(3 months shy)11 year old bully Chester passed
He was seriously my best friend, and it's been unbelievably hard. Chester and I were insanely close, and he helped me grow up to be who I am today. Yes I said it, my DOG taught me how to be a good person lol. I got Chester when I was 13, and me and him were inseparable since. A year after we got him, we moved upstate, away from all my friends, and it was a hard time in my life. When I moved I thought I would make all kinds of new friends, and have all kinds of fun. Boy was I wrong...I was a reject lol. I couldn't make a friend to save my life up there for some reason. But when I came home Chester was always waiting for me. He would always find a way to make me feel better, and help me forget about the kids at school. He was my ONLY friend for a while, and I honestly had no problem with it. After I graduated, I eventually made a whole bunch of friends and life was good. We both got older, but never did I leave his side. I lived at home for quite a while (I'm 24 now) and I actually moved out 3 months ago. It was a sad day for me, because I knew I wasn't going to be waking up in the same house as my dog. I would still visit him all the time, and he would sleep over my apartment from time to time. But I missed my dog, and I knew he was getting older and time was starting to get the best of me and him...
Friday, my dad called me. Told me Chester is drinking a lot, and peed his bed. He was still acting normal, but had some weird symptoms. My heart sank...I had a BAD feeling. I knew this wasn't good and it had to do something with his kidneys, so we booked an appointment at the vet that day. He got blood work done, and a urine sample but the results wouldn't be in until monday. I wasn't too happy about this, because I knew it was something serious. He was acting fine besides those issues though, so I complied and agreed to wait. I was worried about him, but I stayed positive because he made it seem like nothing was really wrong.
Saturday, I went over my parents house for dinner. I walked in the house, and noticed I wasn't greeted by my Chester...My heart sank even lower, and I checked up on him. He looked bummed...He looked defeated, and could no longer hide it. I knew he was dying, but again I tried to stay positive and hoped maybe he was having some kind of diabetic reaction. He was shaking, breathing shallow, and peed and puked where he was laying. We took him to the ER, and got an x ray, and blood work done again. Both the blood work, and x ray came back bad. Apparently Chester's heart was severely enlarged, his trachea was in a weird position, and his kidneys were failing. They couldn't give him anything because it would shut down his kidneys, and they couldn't do anything for his kidneys because of his heart. It was the time to do what I've been dreading since I was 13...We had some time with him to say goodbye and I think he knew what was happening. He wanted to leave the room, and didn't want to go in the vets office I think lol. We calmed him down, and began. I laid him down, and held him in my arms while the vet took care of it. I gave him a last kiss, and whispered how much I loved him, and how much I was going to miss him. And before I knew it, my best friend of 11 years was gone.
It's been super hard on me so far, and I've been pretty depressed. I can't seem to shake it no matter what I do, I always think about him. He was my pride and joy, and my best friend. I've never lost somebody so close me before, and for some reason I feel lost now. I feel like my life is just so empty, and dull. He was a BIG part of my life, and my day. I always looked forward to going home because I got to see him, but now that's gone. I'm scared to go home now too. Its just so quiet now, and it drives me crazy. I've been crying A LOT too, and I DON'T cry usually. I need to start finding some peace, because I too feel defeated now. I feel very lonely again, and I KNOW he would be upset with me about this. I was thinking about seeking out an animal medium reading...To help give me some closure, and know with absolute proof he's still with me. I was also thinking about getting a portrait tattoo of him somewhere. I just never want to forget him, and want him to be with me until my dying day. He meant THAT much to me, and I'd be honored to have him with me forever.
Anyways, my heart goes out to anyone who has lost a pet. I feel your pain, and if anyone wants to talk to me, please feel free. I could use some advice, and I would love to help you if I could. Maybe together we can find some peace in all of this. I decided to make a memorial video for him too. I wanted a nice way to remember him. It was hard to make, and it might make some people emotional. But it made me feel great after because I had so many pictures, and great memories to look back on. Thanks for reading about my Fat Boy Chester!! It means a lot to me, and I'm sure it means a lot to him too.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xs5sc0J3avo
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Saturday, my almost(3 months shy)11 year old bully Chester passed
He was seriously my best friend, and it's been unbelievably hard. Chester and I were insanely close, and he helped me grow up to be who I am today. Yes I said it, my DOG taught me how to be a good person lol. I got Chester when I was 13, and me and him were inseparable since. A year after we got him, we moved upstate, away from all my friends, and it was a hard time in my life. When I moved I thought I would make all kinds of new friends, and have all kinds of fun. Boy was I wrong...I was a reject lol. I couldn't make a friend to save my life up there for some reason. But when I came home Chester was always waiting for me. He would always find a way to make me feel better, and help me forget about the kids at school. He was my ONLY friend for a while, and I honestly had no problem with it. After I graduated, I eventually made a whole bunch of friends and life was good. We both got older, but never did I leave his side. I lived at home for quite a while (I'm 24 now) and I actually moved out 3 months ago. It was a sad day for me, because I knew I wasn't going to be waking up in the same house as my dog. I would still visit him all the time, and he would sleep over my apartment from time to time. But I missed my dog, and I knew he was getting older and time was starting to get the best of me and him...
Friday, my dad called me. Told me Chester is drinking a lot, and peed his bed. He was still acting normal, but had some weird symptoms. My heart sank...I had a BAD feeling. I knew this wasn't good and it had to do something with his kidneys, so we booked an appointment at the vet that day. He got blood work done, and a urine sample but the results wouldn't be in until monday. I wasn't too happy about this, because I knew it was something serious. He was acting fine besides those issues though, so I complied and agreed to wait. I was worried about him, but I stayed positive because he made it seem like nothing was really wrong.
Saturday, I went over my parents house for dinner. I walked in the house, and noticed I wasn't greeted by my Chester...My heart sank even lower, and I checked up on him. He looked bummed...He looked defeated, and could no longer hide it. I knew he was dying, but again I tried to stay positive and hoped maybe he was having some kind of diabetic reaction. He was shaking, breathing shallow, and peed and puked where he was laying. We took him to the ER, and got an x ray, and blood work done again. Both the blood work, and x ray came back bad. Apparently Chester's heart was severely enlarged, his trachea was in a weird position, and his kidneys were failing. They couldn't give him anything because it would shut down his kidneys, and they couldn't do anything for his kidneys because of his heart. It was the time to do what I've been dreading since I was 13...We had some time with him to say goodbye and I think he knew what was happening. He wanted to leave the room, and didn't want to go in the vets office I think lol. We calmed him down, and began. I laid him down, and held him in my arms while the vet took care of it. I gave him a last kiss, and whispered how much I loved him, and how much I was going to miss him. And before I knew it, my best friend of 11 years was gone.
It's been super hard on me so far, and I've been pretty depressed. I can't seem to shake it no matter what I do, I always think about him. He was my pride and joy, and my best friend. I've never lost somebody so close me before, and for some reason I feel lost now. I feel like my life is just so empty, and dull. He was a BIG part of my life, and my day. I always looked forward to going home because I got to see him, but now that's gone. I'm scared to go home now too. Its just so quiet now, and it drives me crazy. I've been crying A LOT too, and I DON'T cry usually. I need to start finding some peace, because I too feel defeated now. I feel very lonely again, and I KNOW he would be upset with me about this. I was thinking about seeking out an animal medium reading...To help give me some closure, and know with absolute proof he's still with me. I was also thinking about getting a portrait tattoo of him somewhere. I just never want to forget him, and want him to be with me until my dying day. He meant THAT much to me, and I'd be honored to have him with me forever.
Anyways, my heart goes out to anyone who has lost a pet. I feel your pain, and if anyone wants to talk to me, please feel free. I could use some advice, and I would love to help you if I could. Maybe together we can find some peace in all of this. I decided to make a memorial video for him too. I wanted a nice way to remember him. It was hard to make, and it might make some people emotional. But it made me feel great after because I had so many pictures, and great memories to look back on. Thanks for reading about my Fat Boy Chester!! It means a lot to me, and I'm sure it means a lot to him too.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xs5sc0J3avo
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