Hee hee! I understand completely. I read more than post anymore -- only staying to the behavioral threads where I might help someone. I hope to see you back in the "garden chat" come spring! I planted some wonderfully frilly petaled primroses yesterday in the 52 degree "heat"; it was exhilarating! Soon gardening season will be upon us!
I hope that, in spite of whatever is troubling you, that you take time everyday to do something for YOU. Important.