Tracey - when i lost Nitscke, it was so sudden and nothing was expected... I cried for weeks and could not,NOT leave the hosue for over a week. I was afraid to come home and him not be there.. It still hurts two years later. You will, not going to lie, totally lose it when hubby walks in, it is to be expected as he is your pillar and you'll be able to release with him in a way you can not yet do .... we are all here for you and know you are not alone.
Also, I apologize for not posting Winston's pic in my signature, I tried, really did, but I can not brig myself to remove my baby, even if for a day. Sorry.
BTW -- don't you DARE think of not being on this site either.... we all love you dearly and EBN wants/needs you with us