It is always sad when we lose a loved one and we sit and reflect on their and our lives. I am sure Roscoe felt loved and wanted and that he was at last home because you made him feel that way. You are hurting cause he loved you and your family a mutual bond that has been torn asunder. Imagine if you had not rescued him how both of you would of felt with out each other, some times to LOVE hurts but is necessary and worth it. Sure you would do it all over again, also sure he knows you still love him.