Ah Honey, everyone knowing your back story and enormous losses
endured by you & yours probably feels sick with worry too.
As one who's gone thru several, back to back tragic events & losses,
this is what I know...
Life is unfair and randomly cruel so enjoy every minute of every day
because it could be your last (or loved one's last) and leave the worry
and stress to GOD.
When it's your time to go, you go, similarly, when it's not, it's not.
Love is the key to everything and you can and will, be able to handle
even the worst thing that comes. Maybe not well, certainly not without
terrible scars lasting forever but love pulls thru and love is left behind
the loved ones that leave us.
Wally Gator is tough. So are you. I will pray and petition GOD to send
peace to you & yours and have faith that all will be well...because it will.