Dear Ashley, it is sad that finances have to play a role in the care of our pets.
NO...you are not a monster and for most of us, it's the harsh reality.
I am on disability and take care of Mother, on disability also...we have bills, there
is no extras. I can offer a great home w/quality food & regular Vet care & nail
trims, etc (because I spend for no other hobbies, cut my own hair & Mother's, etc)
but if serious illness hit my bully or cat then I'd have no option but putting them to
sleep. I rescue or rehome so I give a dog needing a home a great home but can't
do more than that if emergency happens. It is what it is and the best I can do.
You are supported here, Ashley...no guilt or judgement on your decisions.
Please let us know how Lily is doing, I'm (& EBN) keeping y'all in prayers, dear one.