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My Bully Gave Me Wings
- Feb 3, 2012
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- Bulldog(s) Names
- Abby (my Sweetie Head 10.24.11-11.23.12) and Otis
That's what the specialists told me it was. She was born this way. This was not my fault. There was nothing I could have done to prevent it and nothing that I have done in the 5 weeks we have had her has made it any worse. If that's true, why does it feel like I broke her?
I have to say, this Tinton Falls hospital... outstanding group of people. They had 3 doctors to look at Abby. Each of them said the same thing. They wanted to be 100% sure so they did another ultrasound FOR FREE. The first one was over 600.00.
I am meeting with the nutritionist next week. She is going to devise a special diet using organic foods for Abby. I don't like her on this canned stuff. I don't care how good they say it is for her. How good can it really be with all those preservatives and artificial flavors working through her broken little system. Her kidneys can't filter that junk out.
They taught me how to administer the subQ fluids on my own. I can't believe my beautiful little Abby has her own little IV bag now
The price wasn't nearly as steep as I expected either. The exam by 2 internal medicine doctors and one surgeon. The IV fluids, tubing and needles. A case of this Purina Renal Health stuff to hold her over until I see the nutritionist. Plus the free ultrasound. It only came to 229.55.
None of them could tell me how much longer we will have with her. It could be a month or a year. But not longer than that. Her blood pressure is good and the kidneys are still producing urine so that's at least positive. I'm taking her back on the 6th for another blood panel. This time she won't eat for the required 12 hours before the test so we have accurate results. Hopefully between the diet, IV fluids and amphojel the levels will have dropped some. Maybe it will buy us a little more time.
My heart is completely broken but there is nothing more that I can do other than to love her to pieces and try to keep her comfortable. My son is in complete denial even after hearing all that was said tonight. He refuses to believe that as young and active as she is, as playful as she is... he refuses to believe that she will die soon. I can't believe it either.
I have to say, this Tinton Falls hospital... outstanding group of people. They had 3 doctors to look at Abby. Each of them said the same thing. They wanted to be 100% sure so they did another ultrasound FOR FREE. The first one was over 600.00.
I am meeting with the nutritionist next week. She is going to devise a special diet using organic foods for Abby. I don't like her on this canned stuff. I don't care how good they say it is for her. How good can it really be with all those preservatives and artificial flavors working through her broken little system. Her kidneys can't filter that junk out.
They taught me how to administer the subQ fluids on my own. I can't believe my beautiful little Abby has her own little IV bag now
The price wasn't nearly as steep as I expected either. The exam by 2 internal medicine doctors and one surgeon. The IV fluids, tubing and needles. A case of this Purina Renal Health stuff to hold her over until I see the nutritionist. Plus the free ultrasound. It only came to 229.55.
None of them could tell me how much longer we will have with her. It could be a month or a year. But not longer than that. Her blood pressure is good and the kidneys are still producing urine so that's at least positive. I'm taking her back on the 6th for another blood panel. This time she won't eat for the required 12 hours before the test so we have accurate results. Hopefully between the diet, IV fluids and amphojel the levels will have dropped some. Maybe it will buy us a little more time.
My heart is completely broken but there is nothing more that I can do other than to love her to pieces and try to keep her comfortable. My son is in complete denial even after hearing all that was said tonight. He refuses to believe that as young and active as she is, as playful as she is... he refuses to believe that she will die soon. I can't believe it either.