I could not even imagine how you are feeling about Lola. I too have an English Bulldog with severe epilepsy. Vegas was only a baby when he was diagnosed at 10 months old. I thought he was going to die before his first birthday. 8 years later... he is still with us. I don't know how or why... but I feel I'm a very lucky mom to still have this boy in my life. Epilepsy is a dangerous and very serious disease for a bulldog. Vegas has a grand mal seizure every 3 weeks or so. Recently he had 3 in one morning and I couldn't do anything about it because I wasn't even home. I have a camera on him during the day and the movement of the seizure sent a notification to my phone. Watching him suffer while I was so far away is torture no one will ever understand.
I not only love my bulldog.... I'm in love with him too. Everything I do in a single day revolves around him, concerns him or I'm thinking about him. I have thousands and thousands of photos of him and I take more every day. I have a greeting card line that features him and his sister. I have a youtube channel with hundreds of videos of him and his little sister. He's appeared on the news and even on AFV. In fact, there is a facebook compilation of bulldogs that has gone viral with him in it. People have shared and reshared his video and I often find it on animal FB pages... with millions of views. He is my life, my first bulldog and I will never be able to recover when he passes.
At least that is how I feel now.
But I know in time the pain will lessen. The hurt will heal. The tears will stop. But the memories never will.
I send my deepest condolences for your sweet Lola.
And dang nabbit @Petra! You had me sobbing with that sweet Last Will and Testament.
You were born with the ability to change someone's life, don't ever waste it.
So sorry for your loss. It is never easy loosing one if our fur-babies, as they are part of our family. We are here for you, and will lend an ear anytime you want to talk.
Have a Great Bully Day.
Member of The Bulldog Club of America, The Bulldog Club of Texas and French Bulldog Club of America.
Bully hugs from - BeBe, Hazel, Lucy Lu, JLO, Hillary, Henri & Katie
"Dogs have a way of finding the people who need them and
filling an emptiness we didn't even know we had."
So sorry about your loss - and welcome to EBN. This is a great community indeed.
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So very sorry to hear of your loss. Our babies are family and it is so difficult to grieve their loss. Thoughts and prayers to you from our family.
Thank you for giving a loving, forever home to a bulldog needing one.
Because you're human and grieving hard, it may take a 'lil longer to
bond with Juno. Not to worry, it will happen...one day, you'll realize, it
has happened, just like that!
Grieving is a sacred act of deepest love that we do to honor our beloved.
Do not fear it, Honey but embrace it, it is a journey that is unavoidable.
You will not lose yourself nor be destroyed by it. Lola rests in peace and
is completely restored in God's Heaven. I believe we reunite with our loved
Be kind, gentle & understanding of yourself as you would any loved one
going thru a difficult time. Your heart is wounded and losing your beloved
Lola IS unbearable, it physically hurts! Longing for her presence rips that
wound open anew, it feels as if it will never end. There will come a time, the
pain eases, we adapt...never forgetting or loving less, just continue living as
we are designed to do so.
Welcome to EBN, we know how terrible is your loss of Lola, how strange it all
is right now, nothing normal or good enough and you can't imagine feeling
better but you will and we will help you thru these awful days & nights. So will
Juno...NO...she's not Lola and in time, you'll love her for herself and enjoy what
she brings into your life. May God bring comfort, strength & peace into your heart
and soon, enjoying life and open fully your heart to Juno. I lift you in prayer to
Jesus, the Man of Sorrows, who lived & felt it all, as we do in our mortality & flesh.
Please, cry out to Him, rest in His Love of you, let Him bind your wounds then lay
them at His feet. Jesus captures every tear, they are sacred to Him...you are His
Beloved, Shannon and Lola awaits you, running in perfect contentment by His side
as she does so. Walk your journey, find your laughter & joy again (it will come) and
let your heart heal...love is never lost only added to...be well again soon, Shannon.
My 1st bully, Brutus
RIP beloved boy.