ya know what i'd do in times like this? Lift the bullies up on to the bed, and snuggle up with they. Because they WILL show you undying love they wont tell you that you have grey hair (or lack of hair in my case!), or are soft around the middle. They only 'bitch' when they want a little attention or need to go potty, or fed, or want a butt scrunch or a belly rub...or..oh HELL they BITCH Alot dont they! LOL
oh my hon i dont think there is a person alive who hasnt been where you are. yes it does get better and it does heal up. hm when me and my last hubby-yes ive had 2- broke up it took me a good six months before i was back to myself and then i realized that i had been this whole other person when i was with him. i was angry and pissed off all the time as we constantly fought and then would be ok then fight. after the 6 months had passed i found my sense of humor again and realized how much i had let someone else change me and man was i happy that we didnt get back together and still are to this day like 9 years later. i to wished for a child but it never happened for me and its to late now but you know what the older i got the less important it was cause im to tired for all that stuff now and its ok. i have my dogs and cats. i do find it sad that at your age a man has never told you he loved you but that is ok to. we love you here.
Second: You are definitely NOT a loser. I do agree that a girl/guy has to kiss A LOT of frogs before you find the one. It sucks but there it is. You are a caring person who loves their bullies...that ALREADY says a hell of a lot about you! Best to quit wasting time on someone who is only a pretender. Keeps you free for other things. Keep the faith, my dear, you will find what you are looking for and you will be so glad you threw that smelly fish back!
RIP Samson el Torito and Petunia Belle
May 20, 2000 - June 06, 2008 and November 16, 2004 - April 10, 2015