Jim, my career Army Dad was alcoholic and I'm the oldest of 4, he was very violent.
We grew up in hell, abused in every way until each of us left the house as early as possible.
I actually was dxed w/PTSD as an adult and eventually started having anxiety then panic
attacks, it has stopped now ~also part of symptomology of auto immune diseases, which
themselves may be triggered by extreme, ongoing stress. He was so violent & crazy that
we saw, heard and endured unspeakable abuse that no child should ever know about. We
saw things done to Mother which breaks my heart to this day.
This does not compare to the stresses of being a solder and being in combat but I really
understand how difficult living thru these things can be. I commend you for being the father
and husband you are and the man you are. We are blessed to get your perspectives on
EBN and that you care enough to let your defenses down to share them to help someone.