I feel like I haven't had any chance to do what I want to in my life.
Because of her making terrible decisions in husbands, I was forced to grow up early. He beat me, sexually abused me, etc. That's probably why I'm so damn messed up in the head. She doesn't know about any of this stuff..only my therapist does. I told my mom that this guy was bad news, she didn't listen. The guy was terrible and beat her too. She tried to get out and leave but he wouldn't let us, he'd just beat her more and cause more problems. The only reason we got out was because eventually my mom tried to commit suicide and landed in the hospital. They got divorced after that.
I love my mom. But she's so overbearing and I'm so sick of her controlling my life. My childhood got screwed up. I didn't get to do what I wanted to do. I don't want the rest of my life to be controlled by "what my mom will think." My therapist has told me I need to do what I WANT TO DO. She said I put too much emphasis on other people's approval.