- Nov 10, 2012
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Today I lost my girl. It was sudden and unexpected. I was dropping her off at the vet when she collapsed. she had been acting normal. suddenly her feet began to slide like she couldn't stand upright and her body head rolled from side to side. I was immediately alarmed because this had never happened. I said: are you okay, mama? and she looked up at me. I will never forget that look for as long as i live. she looked so confused. It was like she was asking ME what was wrong with her. I knew something was terribly wrong. I told the receptionist to get the vet immediately and it was like she ignored me. I screamed at her again. the vet tech came out and immediately jumped to action. by this time, Petunia was on the floor. splayed out. he started tapping her eyeball. I watched her take one breath, then two. then nothing. she quit breathing. The vet came out asked what was happening, I said I didn't know but she just quit breathing. the vet tech picked her up and she was so limp. She was gone. I knew she was.
He came back out 5 minutes later and asked me how long they should work on her and I said however long the vet thought. The vet came out 5 minutes after that and she was crying. She said she tried everything and Petunia was not responsive. they did chest compressions, epinephrine, intubation...she said she was so sorry but my girl was gone.
I am, frankly, numb. It literally happened in one minute.
The vet thinks she must have had a tumor on her spleen and it ruptured. An autopsy would have to be performed to know for sure.
Honestly, I cannot do that to my beautiful girl. It will not bring her back. a few months ago we did blood work and she was healthy. She had been having UTIs recently and we didn't know why. None of that matters now.
I want to thank each and everyone of you who have read my posts or followed me on facebook. I also want to thank EBN Nation for the beautiful flowers. I honestly was not expecting that. I love you all for your friendship and mutual love of the English bulldog breed. No one really understands unless they have loved a dog.
I am lucky to have had her for so long. And honestly, she saw me through some of the hardest times of my life. I loved that little dog with all my heart. Now there is a gaping hole and I just don't know how it will ever be whole again.
Apologies for the rambling. Tonight is the first night that my 'bunny' will not be snuggling up to me in our nightly ritual that I loved and cherished. tonight I know I will not sleep. The only comfort I take is knowing that my sunshine girl suffered very little.
Sleep, my little one, sleep.
I will love you always.
He came back out 5 minutes later and asked me how long they should work on her and I said however long the vet thought. The vet came out 5 minutes after that and she was crying. She said she tried everything and Petunia was not responsive. they did chest compressions, epinephrine, intubation...she said she was so sorry but my girl was gone.
I am, frankly, numb. It literally happened in one minute.
The vet thinks she must have had a tumor on her spleen and it ruptured. An autopsy would have to be performed to know for sure.
Honestly, I cannot do that to my beautiful girl. It will not bring her back. a few months ago we did blood work and she was healthy. She had been having UTIs recently and we didn't know why. None of that matters now.
I want to thank each and everyone of you who have read my posts or followed me on facebook. I also want to thank EBN Nation for the beautiful flowers. I honestly was not expecting that. I love you all for your friendship and mutual love of the English bulldog breed. No one really understands unless they have loved a dog.
I am lucky to have had her for so long. And honestly, she saw me through some of the hardest times of my life. I loved that little dog with all my heart. Now there is a gaping hole and I just don't know how it will ever be whole again.
Apologies for the rambling. Tonight is the first night that my 'bunny' will not be snuggling up to me in our nightly ritual that I loved and cherished. tonight I know I will not sleep. The only comfort I take is knowing that my sunshine girl suffered very little.
Sleep, my little one, sleep.
I will love you always.