It will be a year since Aubrey died on May 4th. It gets harder the closer it gets. I'm a couple semesters away from earning my M.A. in English and Creative Writing, so I had to take a poetry course last semester. I wrote a poem about the loss of Aubrey and the guilt I felt when we first got Aubie Shug.
A Paw-Printed Heart
Footfalls silent against the aging overgrown trail
Spurred by nature's breath singing a lonesome song.
Drifting numbly forward to forlorn emotions frail
And no softened ground catching my upcoming swoon.
Pale fading petals shrivel and shed
Blanketing stone brushed by paw and palm
A steadfast symbol always I dread
Heartbreaking past hostile to care and calm.
Love buried in the ground,
too soon gone to mother earth's bed.
Pain sings in the sound
We knew she was loved, they said.
Furry little missile zooms through the garden
Explosion of energy booms then dies.
That toothy terror begs for a quick pardon
Mischievous yet innocent big brown eyes.
Similar browns once stared back at me
Now long gone but never replaced.
Guiltiness slows with time and now she
Helps heal my heart, shame displaced.
Life is like a box of chocolate covered
they are always with us... memories and in our heart
There is a part of your heart not alive until a bulldog has entered your life.
Nitschke (2004-2011) and Banks (2005-2014) -- My angels
Thank you for all the love, fun and teachings
No guilt! Aubrey sent an angel to you. Only for love....never for pain.
Touched my heart.
Abbey is looking for a forever home
Such talent & love in your touching tribute to Aubrey.
I am sorry for your loss.
Thank you for sharing this with us.
My 1st bully, Brutus
RIP beloved boy.
What a great poem! I am so sorry for your loss but so glad you have another bully to fill your heart in only a way a bully can!
Sending a big bully hug. That is so beautiful... they really do know how to make an impression.
Wonderful. Truly wonderful.
What a touching tribute.
Aubrey wouldn't want you to feel sad or guilty though.
She wanted to give you nothing but love and smiles.
And I'm sure she had a paw in sending you Aubie Shug to bring them when she couldn't anymore.
@AubreysMom I'm so very sorry! I honestly couldn't read your poem because I knew the would start flowing.
Please know we are with you in spirit to support you.
This is beautiful. I feel the pain in your words, having lost so many wonderful fur kids.
"Dogs have a way of finding the people who need them and
filling an emptiness we didn't even know we had."